The decision.

The three options are namely Computer Graphics and Visual Effects, Interactive Applications (Flash and such) and 3D Animation. After nearly six days of serious pondering and self-reflection I have decided on my major, and I think it really is a great surprise to all that know me.

I chose IA - Interactive Applications.

It is a surprise to myself as well. I always thought that my ultimate dream of my life is to join a game production crew and be a part of the team that creates games that I like playing so much. I held the dream high when I entered this course and I was so proud of my 3D assignments. It is a fact that 3D modeling fascinates me. It still does. Breath-taking fantasy universes and realistic city scenes impress me and I WANT to be able to do such things.

But will I able to do it as a job? And do it well?

I weighed my strengths and interests. It was mainly between IA and 3D Animation. I have stronger foundation in IA due to the fact that I taught myself web publishing and coding back in secondary school, and I am fairly interested in coding web programs and designing interactive media content. My 3D foundation is not as strong, and I like gaming and the world of 3D. It was such a tough decision because I am alright with both - skills-wise and interest-wise.

So I took myself into consideration - my personality.

And I realize that I am will actually like IA better as a job than as a 3D animator. Doing 3D is extremely time and energy consuming. Perhaps it is because I am still green, but I am sure that even if one is an expert 3D modeling and animation is labor-intensive work. People working in the 3D field often work overtime and late into nights. I thought I was fine with that when I first wanted to pursue my dream as part of a game production crew, but after consideration I am actually far from being fine with such a rigorous job.

I can imagine myself doing jaw-dropping 3D graphics and enjoying it at the same time, but only when it is at my own pace. Doing it as a job would mean that I need to rush out, what, maybe ten models a month? I can almost already feel the fun vaporize upon such a thought. It would mean extreme levels of stress for me.

3D will stay as a hobby. I will continue honing my skills and show off occasional works at deviantArt after I get good enough at it. IA is about design and programming/coding (Flash, illustrations, Java games and etc), and I could also show them off at deviantArt.

Of course I might change my mind. I am fickle-minded.

I feel like as if I turned my back on my dream. The feeling certainly sucks.