This short extract from the lyrics of TATU's song best describe me right now ...

Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see
Yes, I lost my mind

Don't ask me why. I just feel like that. I plunged into a whirlpool of confusion. Everything is in bits and pieces. Don't get me wrong. I do not need anyone's help. I only need myself.

I am not being selfish or self-centered. It is because I need to depend on myself. I cannot rely. I cannot be dependent. I will fall one day if I do that. I need to be independent.

All by myself.